Finally got an email back from the college today telling me, three weeks into the term, that I’m not getting a place on the course.
So I guess I’ll just continue avoiding all my friends because they’re all finishing their masters, or at least working a job that lets them pay their own rent and I’m just a worthless lump of talentless people goo who hasn’t got any kind of control over her own life and apparently the universe isn’t willing to give me a shot when I try to get some.
Why do I even bother.
Stirling’s Freshers Fair seemed simultaneously busier and quieter at the same time today. Still, free pizza and some of the sci fi society crew swung by to say hello, so that was nice.
Plus I got paid to just chill out at the university all day.
My brain is sort of half ticking-over on the idea of trying writing again, but it’s been almost a year since I wrote anything and I don’t know if it’s worth it.
I finally got a chance to log back on to FFXIV tonight after like a week and a half and I’m now having a feels attack because my Free Company leader is getting all excited at me being back because I’m apparently the glue that holds us all together, and he feels like it’s just been really quiet and lonely without me there, even though the other members are his girlfriend and IRL friend.
Which is kind of a big deal for me since I’m *never* the important friend. I’m a periphery friend, or a back-up friend.
I just love my FFXIV people so much.